jetski 101 and other musings

while on my latest adventure in the world of movies, i had the great opportunity to ride on a jetski.
for the first time ever, mind you.

IT WAS KICK ASS GOODNESS! Made me want to own one although that would be entirely impractical since the nearest body of water is more than a few hours away. (and that lake has been known to be a dumping ground for all sorts of things, so i am not too stoked to swim or boat on it!)

I would like to share a few lessons from the jetski:

** speed is fun but you have to know when to slow down. i learned that i like to go fast and that sometimes i don’t know exactly when to apply the breaks. the knowing is important otherwise you can end up in the water. (I didn’t but very very close at one point when i hit a wake that a boat kicked up). After a few minutes though i got the point of this magical contraption. Speed and caution go hand and hand. know the difference.

** nothing beats the feeling of being on the water with the wind in your hair. i think if i had a super power it would be the ability to fly. it is what i imagine complete FREEDOM to feel like.

**sharing is important. i rented the jetski for 4 hours and the other peeps all got a spin if they wanted to. doing new things is fun when others join in.

**i felt insecure off and on through out the week (can’t go into it on my blog but it wasn’t pretty-trust me when i say i truly am a work in progress however, i understand that i need to accept and love the imperfect bits. i just wish those bits weren’t so stinkin’ challenging. they like to come out and play mostly when it is not the least bit convenient) and yet when i was on that jetski, i just didn’t care. i thought very little about how i looked or if people thought i was a good costumer or how will i keep up with the likes of people who know so much more than me. that is an amazing thing.

**i like speed.

**i need to take more chances and try more things, imperfectly. not the “safe” risks. although i am a firm believer that there is nothing wrong with safe. you need both.

**it is good to be vulnerable. you NEVER lose. it is a win win proposition even if it is not rewarded with reciprocation. not every person will honor your open heart. doesn’t matter. do it anyway- keep your heart open, it will lead you to know when it is wise to do so.

**i desperately want to get more clear about my desires. specifically with my work. the film thing. choosing wisely and with not just money or my resume in mind. i choose to move into an active journey of releasing.

my releasing party started yesterday. it will continue for the next 7 days ( i know that it takes way longer and is more of a process, this is me starting). i will be decluttering, letting go, and simplifying
different areas of my life.

First up, the physical part: possessions, my world is full of clutter. So I will be going though item by item. Selling (on ebay or auction), donating, or trashing the things that do not serve a real purpose or bring me joy.

Welcome to the party!