year of 2009: word of intention

…MAGIC.

to revel in the goodness that life has to offer.
to listen to my heart more. embracing MY voice.
to love, and be loved.
to be open and vulnerable.
to be gentle.
to accept the shadow bits, knowing they are a part of me too.
to see what is true and live in it.
to trust.
to build my life in my unique way.
to accept good and beautiful things.
to show kindness and generosity.
to let my strength and passion flow out.

this word seems to capture my wish for this year.

funny side story. i couldn’t narrow it down to one.
i didn’t want my perfectionism to rear its head so i wrote the four choices on slips of paper.
said a little prayer that i would get the world i was meant to have
then i took 3 breaths and picked.

magic it was despite the fact internally i think…’people are going to find me a goof ball’.

personally, i am pretty sure it is the start of a year that is going to throw off the shackles of what i think is possible to what really is and to know that there is just one life.
and i have to live it.
and living for the expectations of others sucks.
i need to be brave enough to make my own choices.

so i say, bring it. and i promise to live my most true self.
the best i can.

deliciously excitedly walking forward,
melly
xoxo

check it out: love notes

a most excellent chica, who i admire
for being so very real and
FEARLESSLY rocking out
her creative side.

you can check her cool blog here.
and the love notes experiment.

might i say that anything that
brings color, joy, and magic into
someone’s life is totally rad.

in turn i will create my own love notes
NEW YEARS style…they will be going out
tomorrow to very special, lovely peeps.

i will be posting pics and asking that you
write to that loved one,
friend,
neighbor or
penpal
too.
they will get a total kick out of it, trust me.
i’m smart that way

con mucho amor,
melly
xo

early trip home

guess what???

last night i had a dream
where i could see it snowing.
beautiful big puffy flakes falling down all
around me.

this morning, it SNOWED and continues.
i look out of the windows in my room
and see a world blanketed in
white
powdery
magical
goodness.
and i
am
delighted!

thank you.

another treat is going home early due to
an opportunity to do a special project
i just got done with.
barcoding and inventorying the
clothes.
it is as fun as it sounds. haha!

on a VERY good note, I start maneater
on the third week in jan.
same crew as with middle men.
bliss, bliss.

two thank you’s.

i am a very busy and content girl.

wishing you a magnificous (my made up word)
NEW YEARS,

melly
xo

ring in the new year cards

i am making and sending out these
fun, colorful cards with
affirmations on the back
to give people a little
splash of joy for
their new year!

it is nice to just roll up my sleeves
and put together little pieces of
artsy goodness.
i have such a blast doing it!

there is a small part of me that doesn’t let completely
loose but i find by the end of my arty time, i feel more
FREE.

this year i decided to
go out and celebrate
mel-style.
it means getting relatively dressed up
in color and sparkle…
finding a fun event to go to.
it looks like the winner is going
to be first night new bedford.

so ya, i will be enjoying the
new year surrounded by strangers.
which i find kind of exciting!
isn’t life grand?

ps i may have another gig working on a miniseries
(along the lines of sex and the city).
it is with some of the same peeps from Middle Men.


**the NEW year is bring NEW things.**

melly’s ode to 2008

hey 2008, you rocked my world.

there was no way i could have
known how it would
turn out.
it started out in a major pit of depression.
not able to see my way out.
struggling just to get out of bed each day.

depression, tricky thing.
for me, my focus was skewed.
i was looking at the wrong stuff.
letting peoples opinions and thoughts control me.
keeping myself locked up.
then my world opened up.
it was slow.

i discovered this blog called dancing mermaid.
written by a kind and generous soul
who puts her light and magic into the world
for others. and she is true to herself.
i totally dig that about her.
it was her courage that got me started
down the road of looking deeper
and stepping out and believing in my dreams again.
it was through the bloggy world i started to play with
my own creativity.
painting,
writing,
taking chances trying new things,
saying no when i felt it was the best choice,
you get the drill.
at times i was scared to death.
because i was out of my little comfort bubble.
you know
where you are “safe” and take no risks.

i realized though safety is an illusion i create.
nothing in this life is safe. not really.
it can be full of love, joy, magic, tests, hurts, and everything
in between but, for me, safe it is not.

here are a few of my joy-full
(and sometimes hard
acknowledged)
discoveries this year::::::

***i learned that i like to jump in full blast and that sometimes
i stick with things and other times i don’t.
***i learned that you don’t have to keep people in your
life that want to manipulate you.
***i learned that there are lots and lots of people out there
who are supportive, kind, and believe in dreams.
***i learned that each time i reach out doesn’t always mean
it is reciprocated. that doesn’t mean i stop doing it though.
***i learned guilt is for bozos. i don’t like quilt trips of any kind.
***i learned that i need to show people just as much love and acceptance as i hope for.
***i learned that knowing me, the for real and true me, is a wonderful journey (AND lifelong).
***i learned that when i am not true to myself, i get testy.
***i learned it is possible to make things happen.
intention is real. trust is necessary.
*** i learned i love glitter and blues and greens.

there is more but i would love to hear from you…

post a comment and let me know some of your discoveries in 2008.

feeling fine,
melly
xoxo

day at the ocean

today i went and spent some time walking on the beach.
sat on a rock and just breathed in and out.
it was divine.
let my thoughts come and go.
not really entertaining them, just
allowing them to be there.
paid attention to breathing.
deep breaths.

heard the water lap on the rocks….

searched for pretty shells…

took pictures….

a very, very restful day.

soul hug,
melly
xoxo

PS Leonie, I hope you are having an amazing road trip with
your honey of a man. Hope we get to hear some about your
adventures!!

new year is coming…

i like the idea of new years’.
fresh starts.
new beginnings
AND yet part of a
whole BIG picture.

i was walking into the
store today and saw a leaf on the
ground.

it seemed like it had a sign around it
saying “take a pic of me!”

so i did.

it’s the little things make a day groovy

sending sunbursts of light to you,
melly
xo

flying to beantown

so right now i am sitting in an airport in Houston.
it is brilliant because i have a 4 hour layover but
i am so full of cold meds it has been a hazy maze-y
time.

before i know it i will be arriving at my dads.

i love this time of year.
it is beautiful.
magical.
full of pretty things.
spirit of giving (as long as we remember what is
TRULY important)
restful
did i say full of magic and joy?!!?!?

2009 is bringing a change to my blog
and some new things.

can’t wait to share them.

i am working on to my ode to 2008.

smooshy, pooshy love to you.
my heart is full and
my head is foggy!!

melly
xo

no sleepy, 5 days more

it’s midnight and i am not able to sleep….
i have 5 more days of wrap and
then i am in the land of LOTS of free time.

i won’t lie that a big part of me is nervous i will
go a very long time without work.

just so the universe knows, i’m ready.
i am seeking a job that has fantastic people
and a movie that is fun and challenging to work
on. i want to learn. i am seeking to find
a mentor to show me some of the ropes of
costuming and the biz.

i got most of those things on this last job.
brilliant people to work with.
they all had big hearts and made me laugh.
the few times i did have a problem, it
was my insecurities (comparing myself to to others).
i do enjoy the movie making process.
to me, it is magical.

that is all i will say about work stuff.

on to the fact i didn’t get the cards made, and
therefore didn’t post them.
instead i will take my time and send them out
as i chose.
so you all can look forward to
a special holiday note coming your way!

love all the time,
xo

check out flickr for some groovy pics- captures of what i have been up to!