hey lovies

i have an ankle ouchie.
it is swollen, i think when i was jumping down from the gate of the wardrobe trailer…
i landed weird and now it is a dull pain when i walk.

**sending out quick healing prayers**

i know that i have been pretty quiet.
still settling into
my life in phoenix
and working full time (which means 14 hours a day).
it makes me appreciate the ultra
luxurious and heart nurturing time I had off.

i am finding new ways
make my life
circular.
balanced.
magical.
living with less guilt or fear.
taking care of me.

in the past i would harbor in
the land of what i now call
gremlin-ville.
the present is offering me other choices.
when life hands me a crisis, i enter it with a calm heart.
(if i can)
knowing that i can only do my best.
that is all we can really do.
our best.
and i truly don’t think that means perfection
like i used to.
while i had always longed to do everything just
right in my movie job world, for example,
now i look to do my best AND connect.
that is so much more important to me, than
being mistake-free.
and it spills over into other parts of my life too!
funny how that works.

i got a beautiful apron made by the uber talented liz.
on one side is greens, yellows, and browns
with flying birdies.
and the other has rich navy and deep red pattern.
the pockets have multi-colored swimming turtles.
it is cute and happy.
perfect for me.

i heart it!

writing cards to my gaggle of lovey peeps.
you all are precious.
i adore you in so many ways.
you inspire me times infinity.

deep thanks-
xoxo

another night, feeling the light

my job is joy when i work
with wonder women
like i am now.
they are kind.
they are fun.
i laugh a lot.

one of the things i find
myself continually
embracing is
the fact i make mistakes or
have questions.
i can’t help it.
they need to be asked when i am not
sure how to do a task and
need to learn.

i read this quote today and it made me smile.

Never bend your head. Hold it high. Look the world straight in the eye.
–Helen Keller

be bold.
be proud.
feel the strength inside.

dreams come true,
xo

ps i got my postcards sent out. if you want one, email me!

rest assured

i am still here.

need to find a rhythm.

look forward to sharing pieces
of
my world in
Arizona.

tonight i am doing some postcards for
my lovely peeps
then to bed.

sending simple love,
xo

seeing the magic

as i packed up my stuff yesterday.
it was such a relaxing time- even though it was busy.
picking up each item that i was
planning on taking with me.
just touching the precious art pieces
i could feel the energy put into it by the
person who made it.

each one meant something unique and different to me.
i saw the choices, the care, and joy that went into each gift.
that is the magic of a handmade gift or unique photo.
you are getting one-of-a-kind artsy goodness.
there isn’t another one like it.

it was only this year that i begin to be really intentional.
it has been a slow process with starts and stops.
the intention to bring
and accept
good things into my life.
to make very specific choices.
of loving myself more AND receiving it.
living authentic. being true (this one has been really interesting).
making my art projects (super special to me).
i am really digging it.

does it come easy every time. nope.
but here is what i do:
i pay attention.
listen.
see.
feel.
explore.
love.
enjoy.
and on those rough days
let them be. be kind.
they pass.
sometimes really quickly and
in other situations
it takes much more time.
that is one thing i have learned.

life is FULL of magic.
yours
and mine.
that is undeniable.

embrace it.

xo

*thank you brandi for the super kind shout out!
i am so glad you liked my goddess cards.

giving an answer

mccabe posed this question on her magical blog today.

so i will take this opportunity-

((since my day is whirly and twirly with packing to head to phoenix tomorrow))

-to answer it here on my site, too.

*what little thing are you celebrating today?*
my answer was this:
i am celebrating my heart.
it loves
it protects
it guides
it gives
it delights…
thank you heart. xo
ps also wanted to celebrate my bloggy gal pals.
they inspire me a ton. with their words, pictures, glimpses of their lives. i dig it all, and i am grateful.
sending love your way—-
i got deep, i know it. i do that lately. maybe because i am exploring me, and i like what i see. also, i tend to go with my first instinct. it is how i roll now. that way i don’t have time to edit myself as much(which i do often).
*how about you?*

new film gig

next week i am starting a
new film job (barring a “push” or change).
changes happen a lot
so i will keep you posted.

the movie is called middle men
(imdb link).
very dramatic.
with luke wilson, giovanni ribisi,
gabriel macht, and rachel taylor.
and other talented peeps but i
don’t know
who yet.

get this…an actor i really like.
who i have seen all his films is
in it—-peter stomare.

i only mention it because earlier in the year
i wrote a small list of people i would
LOVE to work with.
and he was on it.
funny.
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when i was walking to my car yesterday after
watching a movie.
a thought came out of nowhere.
the UNIVERSE hears.
all things.
it pays attention.

sending super duper hope wishes,
xo

ps the doggy biz is just on hold. not forgotten

may i release?

Lately i have found myself wanting to ‘let go’.

LET GO OF:

…extra “stuff” i own (i keep the things i LOVE)
…old wounds
…ideas that no longer serve me
…trying to be perfect (notice i said try!)
…the fear of making mistakes
…my defensiveness (this one can be tough)
…being a victim
…not speaking up when i think i should
…relying on outside things to be my bliss
…the ‘need’ of a man to bring happiness
…feeling responsible for other peoples feelings
…for doing anything that is not absolutely authentic

In the midst of all this, there are struggles.   Just so no
one assumes that I write this and poof it is done.

My life is wonderfully
complex as all of ours are.

That is the beauty.
The paradox.

I sit between two places.  Not in either, fully.
hard but exhilarating.

I know, that it is coming.
I feel like this year has been one of the
most challenging of my life (and I have
lived through some hellish ones) and through
it all there is a feeling that
something beautiful is happening.
A lovely new piece of the puzzle is here.
one that i have dreamed of for a long time.

It is me, loving ME. Seeing ME. Embracing ME.
And with that….loving and being kind to others.
I am drawn to the simple beauty of
self-love.

It is the only way to live.

photo fun: my room

as many who read my blog know,
i have gypsy tendencies.
to stay in one spot is rare.
by both choice, and work.
lately though. even though i travel about
i have been returning to Las Cruces, NM.

it is a center point for now.

i will give you a tour of my room (it is a work in progress)…
i paint this weekend. a beautiful bluey-greeny color. magically yummy!

off we go:

healing thoughts

at night i have been taking time to say this affirmation.
letting it really sink in:

“I am worthy of the very best in life and
I now lovingly allow myself to accept it.
As I work with this concept,
my outer effect pattern
of procrastination
will automatically begin
to fade.
As I internally create a pattern
of self worth
then I no longer have the need
to delay my good.”

~~Louise Hay
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KINDNESS and SELF-LOVE

as I observe people around me, i realize
this is not an issue only i deal with. people
are not kind to themselves. they ‘beat’ themselves
up many times a day. sometimes
in a seriously intense way.

i feel what
they are looking
for
is love.
to be seen. to be able to rest in their
own worth, not having
to do or strive.

thing is, there seems to be a struggle there.
many things that
keep that self-love locked up…maybe they
got overly criticized as a kid,
their work consumes them,
they think it is arrogant or conceded,
life gave them a few knocks and
they went into
protect mode.

whatever the reason.
i wish them
love and freedom. release and peace.
i wish i could give 5 easy steps to
achieving it but i don’t even know
myself

i’m not sure what my place in
this universal
puzzle is, except to say that
i hope to pour a bit of
delight into their lives.
bring color.
bring fun.
maybe even shine back
some of their own inner magic
boy or girl back at them!

in the midst of it, i find
new ways to be kind to ME.

a few i have tried and like are:

going outside for a photo walk
drinking a really good cup of coffee
read a fun book (SARK is good for this)
writing a ‘love note’ to a friend/or my fam
say kind things to myself
be patient when i mess up (and i so do!)
hug a doggy
affirming ME
dressing comfy- and putting on my bulls eye pendant
holding my ‘miracles happen’ rock
making a new art journal page
find a new friend
eat a piece of red velvet cake (one of my faves)

*****how about sharing some of yours with me*****

daring you to be kind,
xo